Awakening of a cuckquean

Okay, for a long while I have really struggled with overwhelming insecurities and jealousies.  My partner and I have always identified as polyamorous, however the amount of time my partner and I have argued over my latest complaint about his sluttyness.. well I dread to think.

My partner is a massive tart.  Something I knew and admired when we first got together, I’ve always been attracted to the men who are tarts.  A skilled and well-known Dom, he is usually in high demand at kinky parties.

A short while ago, there was a moment where I am “stuck” underneath Masters submissive as He’s pounding her, and I’m so desperately turned on I’m almost in tears trying to reach my wand that’s just out of reach.  Master eventually spots my desperation and hands me my toy, in honesty I’m ready to cum before the toy even touches my lips. The whole scenario leads me to not only changing the bed sheets but also the duvet and mattress!!  Master comments afterwards that cucking seems to be a thing perhaps?.

It’s not a term I would have related to a female, later that day out I decide to google it and discover that “cuckqueaning” the female equivalent albeit rare, is a certainly a fetish and one that seems fairly popular on tumblr.

Then comes the realisation that the reason I’m emotionally conflicted is because Him doing these things is a turn on.

BAM insecurities gone.

We’ve explored a few times now, mostly tentatively.  The one time Master has gone all out in making me His Cuckquean, it was the most amazing horny experience of my life.  Masters sub, our lover, my girlfriend (good grief it becomes more difficult to describe someone the more important they are to you) joined us and…well safe to say we all very much had a good time and came away feeling a little changed for it.

So yes, my new-found “cuckqueandry” may from time to time pop up on my blog.  Happy to answer questions, and would love to hear from fellow cuckqueans and cakes.

 

 

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About CheshireCat_MMH

I am a bound girl, an on my knees yes please girl, but just to be clear I am those things to my Master only. I am also a rigger, the gentle sweet kind - who will turn up the pressure oh so slowly that you wont realize I am hurting you till you hear your own whimper. We make rope, made with a sadists love my Master says - or at least thats what he tells me as he grabs hold of my nipples while I am working the rope. So what will you find here? Well... it might be a snap shoot into our lives.. you can see a little about our rope on www.mmhjute.com and my masters rope pics on www.instagram.com/mastermhatter here... here you will find snap shoots and moments behind the scenes, and probably...me in the bath tub with beautiful girls who leave me weak at the knees.

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